Do you ever have days that just simply try every ounce of your patience?
Today is one of those days for me. The weekend flew by far too quickly, and I woke this morning with a severe case of the Mondays. I feel grumpy, tired, impatient, and worn down. My job as a librarian is not a stressful one, and for that I am very grateful, but even simple requests from patrons are ruffling my feathers. It does not feel good. I do not like being frustrated with people for no good reason.
I am learning that even a job I enjoy very much can become a bit boring or burdensome. Or perhaps it is just my routine that has me down—the in and the out of day after day of the same old thing. Ever feel this way?
It might be almost needless for me to say that I am extremely excited for a break over Christmas. And I am fortunate enough to be looking forward to a rather extended break. It is when I think about this time off that I begin to feel ashamed of my bad moods and frustration with a schedule that, compared to many others, is rather desirable, and people with whom it is wonderful to serve. In truth I am a blessed person because 1) I have a job 2) I get a break from that job to spend time with my friends and family and 3) I actually really like being a librarian and the people I serve.
Perhaps my new year’s resolution should be to remember, at all times, to put into perspective my so-called “problems.” When I do this I almost always learn that they rarely amount to anything more than my own bad moods and attitudes. I find myself constantly in need of more grace, more patience, and more love. Perhaps that will be the second (and perhaps more important) part of this year’s resolution—to practice being gracious, patient, and loving in every situation.
What are your hopes for the new year?